I sit in booths at sushi restaurants trying to explain why I like saying that. Holding my head in the crook of my elbow, swinging from side to side I just keep saying it and I don't really know why. Got something to do with everything, it means good things and bad things, it's a comfort and it's frightening. I say it a lot and it was one of those things like you don't realise you're doing until someone tells you.
Right now I have a cement mixer ankle and I'm hobbling around eating dinner at 5pm in big long dresses and I truly encompass and embrace the life of the pensioner. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't mind being old, like actually old, living with things like 'midday' as an actual concept of time not filled and soft fine face hair and walking and calling my old lady friends 'the girls' or something. There's a real definite sense of rut-routine in that life that I like very much and that is probably pretty concerning but I'm not too worried. I have energy to spend at 1am writing music and the manic to be restless about not being able to run so I'm not so old just yet. I'm kicking on for a few more years while 's'all happening' because I don't particularly want to miss any of it, even if I'm not really sure what it is or if I'll like it.
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