we sleep in pairs

anything you can do, i can do
anything you can do, i can do 

bleeding and still sit still

with a hideous sickness crawling
under my skin when our skins are touching

and my heart is racing

new doorway is a frame
throw down outside work

"how did we get here? and how do we leave?"

my headphones press my glasses against my face
i'm never alone on public transport anymore


and as for that 
i mean the other thing
you knew just as well as i did

"electric you,"
 

whoever you love, i'm COOL

i thought my heart was done breaking
but cool, finally, leaning over myself
wrapping up a power cord
i realised i will never, ever be the same
and my heart, broken like a twig, 
will never mend the same as it once was

like - i used to catch the train home alone
at 2am
and it was so dangerous and silly but i did it anyway
and i ran home in the dark feeling invincible

i'm not invincible. i never was
i am so unbelievably breakable
one car trip, one sweet night
over wine and i just know forever

this isn't it. and in a second i'm pieces
sit close to me, please, just

book me a cab. you know
everything you want is actually not that far off

i just assume - though, do you want me?
sometimes i wonder if you might.

i would so happily end this absurdity
i would so happily dive into the insane

and quit all my jobs

and write about you for the rest of my life.

i do worry about you, lovely one
and how you cope
and how you remain
so happily displaced

everything is actually fine
you don't have to know

but i fucking swear to god
if you're not choosing me then
she had better be better than me