The whole experience was pretty new to me, because minus the GREAT LAPTOP CRASH of '11 (during which I lost all of my illegally downloaded music ((karma???)) and non-Facebook photos), technology has been kind to me. Or perhaps I was just so frightened by my old teacher's story of losing his ENTIRE UNIVERSITY THESIS the night before it was due because his laptop crashed, that I've become like this document hoarder, with my external hard drive securely holding all my precious Taylor Swift albums. Um I mean Radiohead bootlegs.
It's funny how something can mean so much to you, and then nothing, all within a relatively short amount of time. I didn't sleep the night before last at all, knowing that I would have to put in a few extra hours of work redoing something that I thought was perfect. But once it was completely gone, and I did have to start again, I just kind of did it without thinking and now it's done and I'm pretty happy and the thing I lost means nothing to me anymore. It's kind of similar to the way I feel about the way I look. Sometimes I desperately ask my mum or my friends 'oh my God do you think I've put on weight?? Tell me HONESTLY' and other times I will be running at the gym and feeling like I could lift a car over my head or something or I'll be drinking wine or eating birthday cake (often simultaneously) and look down at my body and feel perfectly comfortable and happy and strong. So it's kind of strange.
But the nature of those feelings is cyclic so that's kind of different to the whole computer losing work thing - although, who knows, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow wishing I could get that work back...
Anyway it's absolutely POURING today so I think I will just wear my new jumper and listen to stormy music and try to do some work that is piling up slowly but surely. Uhhhh
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