Urgh SOS guys I've started listening to songs I used to listen to when I was 15 again
I've been going out a lot, which I like not only because my friends are beautiful creatures but because it means I'm ~doing~ something and I have something to look forward to during the day. It also usually means that I can just eat some cereal for dinner which I love. The other night I went to two parties and I stopped on the way to Lewis' house to get some wine, and I waited in the long line at Aldi with a single bottle of wine on the little conveyer belt thing and I couldn't stop laughing at how hilarious it looked in the middle of everyone else's groceries. I like the little things like that but I also hate how I notice little things too. Sometimes I feel like my life is magnified and zoomed in and things that are menial are meaningful and things that should be a blip on my radar are catastrophic. This is unhealthy in many ways because it means that if I have some chocolate that I just wanted in the moment I will really worry about it later, or if I want to go to gym for a workout or whatever I will run and run and the next day my body is made of lead you know. But also like I would never change the way I see things like this because the small things are mainly what I write about because they're not small to me, they are very important in their way. My songs are little things that I want to put in a frame I think. I just wish I could see them all in a positive light rather than letting stupid things crawl under my skin and live there.
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