Youlogy

~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~

i'm sure it was vincent van gogh

or someone important like that

who said 'the sadness will last forever'

before killing themselves

i wish i was important enough to have last words

i wish i was brave enough to do normal things

like get drunk

and eat a whole chocolate bar

i wish i was smart enough to be afraid of normal things

like telling secrets

and clashing patterns

i wish someone had told me that the sadness would last forever

instead i had to be happy to realise i was still sad

and i had to lie on my back petrified of dreaming

cause it's all too real

and breathing 

is

so

hard

when it's the wet season and the humidity has you by the throat

i spent a day in bed spent

trying not to lose my head

practice talk in my head

'please help me i don't like it'

round and around again

'please help me i don't like it'

round and around again

~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~ )( ~