Sorry it's been so long between posts! My highschool friends and I always ask each other what's been going on and the answer will always be 'Oh not much ya know' when in reality there's actually been a lot a lot going on and it's all too long or boring or self indulgent to go on about. So I'll give you like a brief ~ ~ ~
I played a gig on my own the other night. I was so nervous, disproportionately nervous to the amount of people that were even there, but I had spent the whole week preparing for it and I was really proud when it was over, like that 15 year old-proud I used to feel after I scraped up the courage to play at some open mic night in Thornbury or whatever. It felt almost exactly like those years when I was younger and doing lil gigs around on my own with my keyboard - my two best friends from high school were even there cheering me on. There was something really safe in those funny gigs I used to do - no one, except for those two, really knew what my songs were about and I could just sing them without worrying about anyone cottoning on to anything. Now it's pretty different I think - or maybe it's not, maybe I'm just paranoid - but it's my own fault really because I've always been the type to overshare feelings etc. Urgh buh this is totally straying off top...anyway yeah it was fun and I was proud to find that I 'still got it', kinda. Whatever 'it' is ~ ~ ~
Um last night I watched 'My Neighbour Totoro' and it was great! I've been meaning to watch it for ages now and I finally did it and I loved it. So adorable and so, so beautiful...when i actually watch movies I usually find that I just love them, I don't know why I struggle to find the patience to just sit down and watch but whatever...also the soundtrack was great!
I played a gig on my own the other night. I was so nervous, disproportionately nervous to the amount of people that were even there, but I had spent the whole week preparing for it and I was really proud when it was over, like that 15 year old-proud I used to feel after I scraped up the courage to play at some open mic night in Thornbury or whatever. It felt almost exactly like those years when I was younger and doing lil gigs around on my own with my keyboard - my two best friends from high school were even there cheering me on. There was something really safe in those funny gigs I used to do - no one, except for those two, really knew what my songs were about and I could just sing them without worrying about anyone cottoning on to anything. Now it's pretty different I think - or maybe it's not, maybe I'm just paranoid - but it's my own fault really because I've always been the type to overshare feelings etc. Urgh buh this is totally straying off top...anyway yeah it was fun and I was proud to find that I 'still got it', kinda. Whatever 'it' is ~ ~ ~
Um last night I watched 'My Neighbour Totoro' and it was great! I've been meaning to watch it for ages now and I finally did it and I loved it. So adorable and so, so beautiful...when i actually watch movies I usually find that I just love them, I don't know why I struggle to find the patience to just sit down and watch but whatever...also the soundtrack was great!
I guess the rest of my life has been writin', runnin', uni..in' and choppin' all my hair off...you know when you just feel so restless and you can't stop moving and your hair is *so* gross and dry and bleached to death on the ends and it makes you SO MAD for not really any reason so you just chop it all off? I did that yesterday and after I do that I usually feel like immediately nostalgic for my long hair - but NOT THIS TIME, absolutely NOT at all. I feel so free!!!! No more disgusting mats in my hair cause I'm too lazy and gross to brush it!! WahooOOo
I'm gonna go make another cup of coffee and try and find some cheap Lisa Frank merch on the internet somewhere (impossible)...excellent way to spend a Saturday morning...
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