In your light

I am happy, because today, when I was feeling quite absurdly nervous for no legitimate reason, I had the good sense to listen to this song, breathe in, and then breathe out again, suddenly knowing that everything is really just OK.

I spend a lot of my time being absurdly nervous for no reason, and trust me, THAT is the epitome of monumentally wasted time. 

I had a dream the other night, where I saw a plane fall right out of the sky and crash into the land. It wasn't as frightening as that dream I had once, that I think I told you about -  where the sun had burnt out and we the humans were trying to relight it before we all died - but it was upsetting. Apparently, to dream of a plane crashing means you have set yourself unachievable goals, or you don't believe in your ability to achieve the goals you have set for yourself. I'm not quite sure which one is worse.

Goodness me, this is too heavy! Here are some good things:

...and for good measure, some lyrics from Nebraskatak's latest song 'Underground'. 

you sit heaving on the edge of your bed
soaking the sheets with salt and sweat.

i rub your back with nothing to say, 
feeling like i'm lying in my grave. 

i stroke your hair but you flinch away. 

we're going underground. we're going down, down, down.