'I AIN'T LIVING IN THE DARK NO MORE IT'S NOT A PROMISE I'M JUST GONNA CALL IT'
Ah, the comfort albums: Bon Iver and For Emma, Forever Ago by Bon Iver, oh they know me so well! Y'know in between the song Kiss by Prince and getting into the VCA, seeing Bon Iver live was really one of the greatest things that's ever happened to me. Sitting with my chin on my knees on a filthy picnic rug, with an eerie full moon hanging over our shoulders and a heavy heart and head from feeling too much for how old I am, with my friends close, in a heady daze of dope smoke and early evening fog, that music was just it, everything, everything to me.
I know so exactly what song comes next, so dear and so close they are to me, that they aren't really separate entities anymore. They're an experience, a memory that I can access whenever I want, and go back to the end of summer early this year, and who I was then, and I realise that the only constant is the music. I have changed, but not much, I'm still so desperately careful...but y'know, I'm better with, well, so much more well-versed in feelings now that I feel as though I get more from music now than I ever have before.
And there are melodies that still kick me where it hurts, no matter how many times I hear them. No matter where, or when; they are scattered throughout my music collection like scars, or maybe stars, depending on how you choose to take it.
My favourite Bon Iver lyric, of them all, is as follows below, and it will follow me like a shadow in my head forever and ever because it is just everything.
'your love will be safe with me.'
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