L and I wander down High St, me struggling to tame my dress in the wind and her with a keyboard stand resting on her shoulder. We are twin earth signs living parallel lives and we like to talk it over every now and again. She has found herself somewhere she wasn't expecting - me too - but the universe has been generous to us both and we tell each other to enjoy while the going is good.
I kiss her goodbye and walk down to lean against the brick wall outside Lam Lam.
I shuffle away from an old piece of chewing gum and think about everyone.
The world is changing around me but I'm changing too - I moved upstairs and now my room is clean and grown up. I was sick with nerves about something and I decided to go for a run because I knew it would calm me down - not because I was terrified of being fat. I am strong but soft too, and one day I'll be completely fine with it. I had pizza last night and even now, after all this time, I feel something like pride in the back of my head.
The boys I met when I was 18 are men now - I watch from the inside out.
I have never felt older, which suits because I've never been older. I've never been smarter, or braver. I feel like I can take it, whatever it might be,
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