Everything is great

nothing new nothing new feeling in reverse looking for the reason for gut-punching sad rather than the other way round and round sleep tight someone throws up next to me and people die does that mean i'm losing them in real life i lose myself all the time i know smiling and how to tell you people what a song means but even i'm still learning i wrote the words when i was nineteen you know i'll show you what that big one means it means i check my phone every two minutes because i feel it i feel it when i hit a red light or a stop sign or the night crawls and i'm drawing flowers in texta and a little picture of me ten times lighter have you got one because i wish i could go back behind the shed back in year ten back when i knew i'd know what i was doing by now but i stay out late and wake up early and i wonder if i ever will/not

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