Despite those feelings I actually did have a really lovely day - Lewis took me to the aquarium and was a v chivalrous man and paid for everything and held my hand while we looked at the fish. I had dinner with my family which was also v nice and my little sister made a very questionable cake but I appreciated the thought...then I drove to the house Lew is housesitting at the moment and we drank wine and talked about everything and laughed and it was nice.
Last night was the launch gig of Frida's clip for Fault In Our Stars, and it was one of those beautiful gigs that make you feel so happy you could just die. On special and important gig days I like to treat myself to a resty/cruisey type day you know...I like to do a medium workout and shower for aaaages and choose my outfit and maybe make a new crown and do my nails and watch Friends and talk to my dog and go to the shopping centre to get fake eyelashes and strands of fake flowers to decorate the stage - I did this all yesterday and I was feeling so nice...unfortunately my mood hit a bit of a bumpybump on the way into the city, where we got stuck in traffic which I actually cannot STAND not even a little bit, and we were late and I was panickin...but it all turned out OK in the end!!!
I get the best buzz from gigs like last night - audiences can be so generous and so sweet and so incredible and so silent during the quiet songs! I feel so alive - my friend Kitty wrote this:
'At surface value I'm tightly wrapped in skin but on the inside I'm flayed open all nerve endings and liquid...'
which is such a wonderfully accurate description of how I feel on gig nights. It's a very good and very addictive feeling and I l o v e i t. And on stage I feel so good and I never, ever, ever feel fat or anything at all, I just feel like I'm living.
Some pics from the gig last night, courtesy of my Aunty...
I fell asleep on the couch with Hud in the middle and Henry on the other side. I fell asleep to laughing and talking and shuffling and YouTube noise and it was the best little half dreamy sleep I've ever had you know. I love everything.
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