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I don't really have anything to say, and I shouldn't, and it's not right, and the universe that I thought was on our side has been particularly cruel today. I don't know why I'm writing this but it's something to do until I can do something or be somewhere that might be helpful. I don't know why I waste tears on trivial things all the time, don't know why I spend so much time sad and anxious, when it's not my place to share in sadness when there's so many terrible things that happen to so many people who have reason to feel all the sadness in the world, close, connected, urgh. 

The world is a terrible place, where good things happen only sometimes. It's just as well that, mostly, the good is beautiful enough to survive through all the atrocities that occur. Just be sure to tell your family and friends that you love them because it's true, you don't know what you got til it's gone.